I was nineteen when I broke my neck in Canada. At the time I was diagnosed with a C2 complete spinal chord injury which meant I had nothing. I couldn’t move, breathe or feel anything. All I could do is blink. The doctor there was sure to inform my parents that I would never regain anything. He tried to convince them that “pulling the plug” was the only reasonable option. I wanted to live, even with so much loss. The doctor wasn’t going to ask my wishes though. You see the hospital there was a organ donor hospital, and I was young, healthy and athletic. I was more valuable dead than alive.
I don’t know what it’s like to be a child in the womb being “terminated” but I do know how it feels to be considered unwanted. My body in pieces would have meant more than the complete person that God had created me to be.. I wasn’t going to be given a choice. My desire to live meant nothing. I would have in effect been terminated. Thankfully, my parents said no.
Before my accident in ’97 I had played guitar. Music was everything to me. I loved to write songs and sing. I had been saving up money to join a group doing missionary work mostly through music. I obviously didn’t make it and would never sing again. However, God is faithful and good. I have regained a lot of neurological function that doctors said would never be possible. I still remain mostly disabled. Since I loved guitar and singing so much but could no longer do either one I decided to get involved in music in a different way. So in March of 2009, I redirected my two great loves – God and music – into a site dedicated to both called CMADDICT.com. I guess I will always be addicted to Jesus and the music that glorifies Him.
– Kevin Thorson (Founder and Editor of CMADDICT.com)